Sometimes I wonder if God looks down at us, and feels the way we feel about our toddlers. No, not “aww, they’re so sweet.” More, “Oh my goodness I’m losing my mind because of these creatures.”
Toddlers are sweet, and fun, and so wonderful. And I believe we all can be at times. But can’t we also be so frustrating?! I’ve been in a rut the last couple weeks. And just like how I think to myself a million times a day “Freddy Merle Gonzalez, stop wasting all that food (as he chucks pieces of hotdog smothered in ketchup on the ground)” I wonder if God thinks “Sarah Marie Gonzalez, stop wasting all your time.”
When I’m stuck in a rut, I find myself using free time to watch TV. And sometimes eat sour patch kids. Neither of those do much for my mood or productivity. I get short and grumpy.
I’m avoiding photography because it’s still hard. And I thought eventually it will get easier, and it will, but it hasn’t yet. Ironically, it won’t until I practice a bunch, but it’s hard, so I don’t want to practice, and so the vicious cycle continues. I really need a kick in the butt. Something to re-motivate myself. I am going to re-dedicate myself to learning photography.
Right… after this episode of Law & Order.